No Matter What…❤

​ “I am excited that finally told you, that I am inevitably in love with you and you don’t seem happy about it. I thought its a nice thing to know if someone loves you! What’s the matter?”, he said. What could I possibly tell this man who has just confessed everything he feels! “I am scared”, I murmured. “Of what?”, he held my hand and gazed into my soul via my eyes. ” I am scared of falling in love”, I couldn’t help but submit myself to him. “Why? You’re the person who taught me the true meaning of love. You are the reason that I can actually love not just you, but everything else around me. Why would you be scared?”, the moment when I realised he has already submitted himself to me! 

“I am scared to fall in love because if I did, it would be impossible to fall out of love. And this time, I won’t have the strength in me to collect all my clobberred pieces. I can’t afford that one more time. I can’t risk getting hurt again.I can’t risk the fact, that if it won’t workout, I wouldn’t see you again. I can’t tolerate not to see you again”. I leaned on my knees and cried. He stood still, saying nothing, he just held me tight and comforted me. I looked up at him, to my surprise, he was smiling. Because even if I didn’t said those words back, everything else that I said, made it clear that I loved him too. 

” You can’t lose me, I won’t let that happen. I know this from the past few days that I may not be the man of your dreams, but you surely are the woman of mine. The moment you looked at me with your sparkling and glowing eyes, I knew this is going to be a while. I could see your pure soul right through those eyes of your’s.” 

(Where the hell he was all these years!)

“I knew then, that I would love you someday.Since then, I’ve been waiting for that day! I just wanted to make sure, that if I am ever going to love you, I become a man with whom YOU can fall in love with. All these days I’ve been trying to be like ‘him’. I don’t know how far I’ve reached, but I love you more everyday; surely, ‘that’ man would love you like that! I know you’ve been hurt before which is scaring you from the next step here; in that account, I just want to thankyou, for what you are today and I love you for who you are. It takes even a stronger man to love  a strong woman like you! I want to be that man to you, if you let me. I want you to realise that for me, ‘forever’ means something.” He smiled at me like its end of the world.

(What could I possibly reply to the modern day shakespeare he was! Man! This man is good. He should write for movies)

I said nothing, but my cheeks did! I looked down for a second and smiled, then again at him, he was smiling too. He came closer, putting his hand on my face, he leaned in, we were almost going to have the best kiss of our lives! “Ba Ba Ba”….”Ba Ba Ba Banana”…Minions? “Do you hear something?”…”No”, he said and continued…”Ba Ba Ba”…I could still hear it, oh damn it! Its my alarm, I have to wake up now! aaaahhhuh….Why couldn’t you let him finish? Damn you modern day modes to intrude my dreams!!!

On my way to the class, I told about the dream to my friends. They laughed & cracked jokes about me, my dream and me being an idiotic hopeless romantic! 
For they don’t know what love is.They haven’t tasted this drug for real, and they don’t have any idea how addicted I am to it. 

HE don’t exist, but I love him already. HE exists in my imagination, which is quite enough for me. Even if I may never find HIM, I will always love HIM, no matter what…..! ❤❤❤

A story worth telling….

“I know she’ll say no, my gut feeling about such situations are always on point”, he said. “And my gut feeling is always right and it says that she’s worth the chance”, I replied. “Oh….Well, alright, I’ll talk to her”, he surrendered.

Its hard for you, if you’re an hopeless romantic and your best friend is in love with this girl since like forever! All you want is for them to be together, because that’s how you are- you want a long term love for yourself & since you don’t have one, you wish to let other’s love, win!

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It seems like yesterday when Dave told me about Claire! Of course, we were in school back then! And, actually after a few months of their break-up, he told me yesterday (for real) that he’s missing her and been thinking about her! To which I responded like Professor Snape conversed with Dumbledore-“‘After all this time?’, ‘Always’!”

It was a beautiful time for Dave, he just became an uncle to his adorable niece, Rizzy and was visiting home after a long time. And I got this text from him saying, “I don’t know why I am thinking about her,here”! I told him many valid reasons to that, like 1) Because you guys know each other since childhood & every memory is suddenly alive again, OR 2) Because now that you’re at home, You’ve all the time to really re-think about everything. All I tried is to console him and be a good friend, its been like more than 6 months of their break-up!

And the next thing I realised after hearing him out was that, he loves her, will always love her & that break-up was a stupid thing, happened for a stupid reason. He was coping with my opinions and did second my decision on telling Claire everything, about how he feels and take a chance, without thinking about any consequences. Next text I got was, “We are back”…. All I could do in that moment was smile, like an idiot, not only that I was happy for them, but because yes, I loved the feeling when love wins and conquers all!

I didn’t tell him why i wanted them to be together clearly. But I guess he knew. He knew how lucky he is to have found his soulmate so early and still love her like always! What he didn’t know, was that, love like their’s keeps hope alive for people like us!

A hopeless romantic is never desperate for love. They just love loving, love. They love everything and everyone. They never lose hope and are always positive. Like while I write this, I love how the wind is kissing the leaves, and how those leaves are bound to dance on it and enjoy ….That’s Love…. A smile is stuck on my face, because I can feel that love without having to love anyone in my life, cause all I do, is love….

“Love is not what you do, love is the way you are”- Sadhguru

“I don’t know why all this has happened! What do you think about us T?” Dave asked furiously. “I am going to write something about it, that’s for sure and just so you know, you guys are meant to be together”, I answered.

Loving just one person your whole life is a treasure only few can find! I just want you to embrace your love and to the haters out there of the love you’ve got, Flaunt it…;)

The Canvas !

When you’re the person of art, everything about you becomes your art exhibition. They say, ‘life is a canvas’. So be it, but lets not forget that the most basic & primary colours used in every picture are Black n White. 

Black- the dark times, the rage, the sorrow, the fear, the hate !

White- the peace times, the love, the beauty, the happiness !

Everything around us, every sorrow or every happy moment, is a surprise. The happy ones are the ones we don’t wish to pass on to anyone else, because lets admit, we’re selfish, so something good happening with us must remain with us! Yet, we are kind, because every pain we come across, every misery we encounter, we always wish to never let that same thing happen to anyone else! We humans are such strange creatures!!!

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We have all shades of black and white. Our grey areas are both evil and good;  Still, we crave colours to be happy!