“When my time comes forget the wrong that I’ve done, help me leave behind some reasons to be missed”, Chester Bennington has given us innumerable reasons to miss him & never ever did he do anything wrong! But, this world wronged him in every phase, that hanging himself felt the righteous choice to him.
He was already drowning in from a long time which reflected in his lyrics of ‘Heavy’, but he fought big time. How fucked up a person would’ve felt that even music couldn’t save him! He proved the absolute truth yet again that – You’re alone, no matter what. And he left us wondering that if a music legend like him couldn’t fight it, how the hell can we!!?
Since childhood he saw no good in people and in the world. All he faced was abuse- mental, emotional, physical, sexual and spiritual. Even after giving so many awesome songs, how empty and hollow would he be feeling to end it all at once!
We were so drowned & taken away by all of his songs, that those were the only lyrics we used to humm every single day. During school, after school, at home and then again at school. Even at our little parties, our teenage was all about Linkin Park! We didn’t know at first what we were listening to, until our teenage life fucked us over in our little ways & these songs were the only help we needed, in the end.
As we grew up, all of our life games and sorrows were okay because we had all of them! Somewhere I Belong, Leave Out All The Rest, Numb, What I’ve Done, Bleed It Out, Papercut & the list goes on…We listened & sang & rocked our rooms, shouted like him and tried to be like him. We jumped on the floor from a height, while Linkin Park was on full volume! It was all for the sake of music & life. It was just the best, our escape from everything. But never did we imagined that those songs are not just music but someone’s call for help.
But you know what! There’s no help. No one can help no one. When you’re fucked, you’re fucked. You can just TRY & get real, survive through that pain or end it all just like that!
He saw pain, sorrows & only hate in this world. I think that he did it right! If the pain is just sucking up the life in you, you just can’t let it win the damn game.You gotta do something & he did something- for himself, for peace.
Sometimes you just can’t talk anymore , sometimes you don’t want to! It’s just, you don’t know what’s wrong, but nothing,NOTHING can make you happy. You know you love your people & they love you, but there’s no point in all of it, if you just can’t love yourself or even if you do, you have to set yourself free, in anyway possible!
Chester chose death. I wish he hadn’t, I wish, he’d fought it a bit more, but I know he is finally in peace!
Thankyou for everything, Chester.